i feel so refreshed this week...

back ache, sore fingers, sore arms, fatigue muscles...
all the result of sudden surge of exercise...
but it makes me feel good :)

kayaking was fun yesterday...
actually was dreading to go cos i never thought such things are ever interesting...
but thanks wt for persuading me to go for it...
n sy please send the photos to me soon!

and the sudden k i had with chewbacca (haha...) and dl was fun too...
his voice was really inspirational...
of cos i'm not talking abt dl... opps...

yup, sudden meet ups are nice...
it's the thrill of life...
expecting the unexpectded...

i wanna be a strong girl...
strong physically, mentally and emotionally!

too many things in my mind bothers me le...
I must let some things go...
let them stop corrupting my mind.

europe... haiz...
i'm still looking forward to it...
it should not be a stress... pressure...
it should be a challenge...
I should stop wanting it to go well...
I should just hope that everything goes fine...
and stop thinking i'm alone on this...
cos the fact is i'm not...

intern intern...
shall not complain about it...
everything just has its pros and cons...
it just depends on how you look at it...
at least the people around me makes it much easier...
cheers!

i had never used to bother about people...
cos i never thought they important to me...
i mean its so much easier to handle things... or even animals...
but as i'm forced to grow up... i get to see things...
the beauty of people... the ugly side of people...
i shall handle things as they go ba...
not to fret...
as i know i have true friends that i can talk to, lean on...
and i know who they are...
hope they know who they are too...

i hate this...

"record your message after the tone"

that girl's voice is so irritating.

ENFP

ENFP's have a tendency to overextend themselves in both their physical and emotional commitments. Their proclivity to procrastinate and to overlook details complicates their circumstances. ENFP's often move on to new ventures without completing those they have already started. Their charming personalities can show signs of irritability and over-sensitivity when their desires to please different people come into conflict. During times of stress, ENFP's feel alienated. They then engage in deceptions that serve to obscure what is occurring within themselves. The ENFP finds symbolic meanings behind the immediate circumstances. These meanings are construed as foreboding problems when ENFP's are under stress. Having a pervasive feeling of losing control over their own independent identities, ENFP's will feel virtually split apart by intruding circumstances. They will be "besides themselves" and "just not all there" — as if something, or someone, has taken away the essence of who they are. Not feeling like themselves, the ENFP will become subject to their own feelings of shame for being a phony, a fake or an impostor. If stress continues to grow, they may attribute malevolent schemes to others in order to explain away their fears.

Although it's nothing much,
i felt like part of the family.

Never had this feeling before,
and for the first time Ber smiled at me.

and clearing up had never been that fun for me before.
Amazing discoveries along the way.

one has gonna be there to experience it.
And i have ribena today.
And a treat for lunch!

Friday, you are finally coming...
Let's end the tiring week with a good note!

sometimes if u see me staring at nothing...

it's really nothing...

I'm just figuring out something...

Something for myself...

The big picture.

This morning, i think i did something remarkable.

And my mom praised me for my bravery and chivalry.

in the darkness, right in my kitchen, i heard the sound of "flop".
it's not the first time.
so the first thought i had was lizard in my cup again.
Yucks!
so i went to check out the cup on my kitchen table.
empty...
then i heaved a huge sigh of relief!

for the second time, i entered the kitchen.
"flop! Flop!"
i grew suspicious.
something fishy is going on.
Something's not right!
my sight narrowed to the can of cherryade i insisted on serving hh.
i thought it was empty.

Shake shake.
oh no... its not...
and there was more flop flop!
instinctively, i jumped but kept my shriek to the minimal cos my family is still sleeping.

I was thinking of avoiding the problem and keeping the can on the table.
like how i faced my awful cup of milo a few days ago.
(fyi, that was my first encounter with lizards so i chickened out.
i only washed the cup when the lizard had its fill.)

but my heart said no.
xinyi u can do it!
U CAN DO IT!
with some acrobatic acts and clever stunts,
i carried the can all the way to the chute with fear and trepidation.

"Plunk!"
it went down the chute.
and an immense sense of contentment filled me up.

the best part of the story,
my mom said i contributed to the social wellness of my home by destroying a lizard.

now,
my plan is to exterminate more.
hohoho....

Xinyi is so brave!

-edited by mae sherie just a little-

Grey's anatomy finale was great!
To all my grey's pals, thumbs up to it!

I liked the ending...
how meredith sorted things out...
love her mom, understands her mom, and understands herself.
And finally she confessed to derek.
It was a mistake for 2 loved ones to not be together cos of misunderstandings anyway.
And its so romantic, the ending... so sweet.

And i think miranda brings light to me.
See the big picture.
I think for many, too many things happen in their life and they get stuck in their warp.
get lost, frazzled and dwell in their small little space.
So see the big picture and piece it up well.
Make sure they fit and form your beautiful picture.

Alex and Izzy kissed.
I'm so thrilled.
I was so hoping that they'll get together.
But on a side note, it's just a platonic kiss.
Still, on the bright side, i can look forward to more actions in the next season.

cristina has got over everything.
cos her passion is back.
work is her passion.
recognition is the icing on her cake.
who needs guys anyway....

this brings me to something i must say...
hans and kelli being together still brings me the chills.
I've been seeing these 2 girls kissing like twice. Omg...
Sometimes i think its so easy for girls to be bi.
i mean there's seldom stigma for girls to hold hands and hug.
ehh... that's so out of the point.

once, a guy in my cca says i'm a les.
I'M NOT!!!!
i hate that people say things that i'm not.
but i know they are joking.
or rather i hope they are joking.

period.

season 5 please!