i'm really touched girls... i'm really touched!

thanks wt, thanks so much for your card and the lovely postcards...
i love you so much wt! (ps don't tell my dear, i'm sure she won't read my words carefully since she's doing her rounds....)
i simply just adore the post cards you designed, i'm wondering whether to share my joy here...
please give me your permission!
muacks muacks wan ting... give me a thousand hugs when i get back k?

my dear, take care when u are doing your internship...
i will not havoc here de... i'll always be by your side...
when can i go to your place to bake?
i miss you so so much! can't wait to see you and give you all my love!!!!!

shirly girly... always my mature girl...
u must really take care of yourself...
u noe we'll be there when u need us to...
forever yours!

cybill!
my sweet sweet friend...
always a little blur but very cute indeed...
i wanna hug u so badly... hehe...
muacks!

jo-ann...
sometimes i'm scared of you, sometimes i tremble when u talk...
but most of the times, i just like you!
take care at down under...
take more pictures with the kangaroos!
hopefully i'll be around when u are back! :)

thanks all of you...
we've been through the most difficult years...
and you've all seen the best and the worst of me...
through thick and thin, hurdles and trepiditions...
we remained the best friends of all....

thanks a lot.... really thanks a lot...
thanks for being yourselves...
thanks for making me feel so special...
thanks for being my forever friends =D

listen.
smile.
be yourself.

=)

i'm a believer...
that's how one can continue to lead a life...

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

so random...
but not so random too...

when everything is going wrong and things are just a little strange...
it's been so long now u've forgotten how to smile...

when overhead the skies are clear but it still seems to rain on you...
and your only friends all have better things to do...

when you're down and lost, and you need a helping hand...
when you're down and lost along the way...
oh just tell yourself I'LL BE OK!

the only way to avoid mistakes is to gain experience,
yet the easiest way to gain experience is to make mistakes.

Sometimes i feel that i'm like Blair...
and this makes me really scared...

i want to share something i wrote in my diary which suddenly got me very emotional...

i was very worried for myself.
i don't know how to protect myself and always set myself into really dangerous situations.
i find myself really very lucky today.
seriously, anything could have happened to me today.

but as such, i was able to meet really great people.
the beautiful ah ma in the train who nagged at me constantly to not take the wrong train to liege and charleroi.
the handsome guy with a mac pc who reassured me the correct train to liege who then later smiled before he left the train to give me double reassurance.
the 2 amazing air stewards i met as i was stranded at the train station who taught us to take cab to safety.
the remarkable brazilian guy who accompany me for the cab ride and the long wait at the airport.
the kind ryanair steward who volunteered to go out of his way to get a hot cup of coco for us.
the enthusiastic malaysian who joined me for the later journey as we are going to manchester too.
and all the people in the train who helped keep me company even if they didn't mean to so that i don't feel so alone.
All the angels that befall in my life today.
thank you all.

i'm blessed, i truely am and i will never forget this night.
i will never ever take my safe and security for granted again.

i still remember what the ah ma told me: "it's not the end of the world! There will be some way out and you'll reach your destination. Don't worry. I'll accompany you."

i'm contented.

it feels good that i'm safe.

after talking to derrick about dying for people you love...
i'm not really into doing it...

i suddenly recall an episode of grey's anatomy that i watched...
kidney transplant marathon...
where one donor links to another then to another...
it's kinda complicated and i'm not into the complex scientific details...
but basically, the link started with a man's adulterous girl and his wife is a link in the whole kidney transplant chain...

initially, both women are doing the transplant to save the useless guy... until the adulterous girl expose her secret identity... a mistress of the guy...
this enraged the wife and she opted out of the kidney transplant program... initially...
this will cause the whole chain to break and it will not be happily ever after...

luckily, in the end, the wife continued with the program as much as she didn't want to benefit her useless husband...
in the end, the useless husband did not go back to the adulterous girl who did the whole transplant for him... which made her really really devastated...

i think i've spun a yarn...
but i just feel that as much as it is romantic and lovely to die for your loved one...
like romeo and juliet or liang shan po or whatever...
i feel that the greater good of the society is more meaningful...
it's really important to think of things in different angles...

generosity...
i hold by this philosophy and am still trying to perfect this trait...

edited/ i suddenly feel i talk too big... too highly of myself alr...
sorry!

:)

i have to speak up in my marketing class today!!!

i have to speak up!

one chocolate for myself if i do :)

perplexed feelings...

it's not real, it's not true...

how can a dead be touched?
how can danny be revived?

it is not possible....
he's just haunting izzy... i bet he is...

moments of weakness... that's what everybody feels once in a while...
time to overcome... that's what everybody needs to feel free...
han may have left... the sense of attachment is still there for callie...

there are so many stories to a person...
so don't ever judge a person by a few actions of one ok?

can't wait for the next episode of grey's anatomy... always sets me thinking...
life can't be more emo without it! haha...

something to take away today...

Asperger Syndrome:

• autism spectrum disorder (ASD) in which there is no general delay in language or cognitive development
• characterized by difficulties in social interaction and restricted, stereotyped patterns of behavior and interests
• lack of demonstrated empathy
• failure to develop friendships
• a lack of social or emotional reciprocity
• impaired nonverbal behaviors in areas such as eye contact, facial expression, posture, and gesture
• awkward in social interactions, often oblivious to the reactions of the listeners

give me more give me more... i like to learn more medical terms...

one of my favourite songs...
listen to the strong bass together with classical music...

I just enjoy listening to the bass :)

what does not kills you just makes you stronger.

be strong, be strong, be strong! :)

"Fantasies are more than substitutes for unpleasant reality" Barbara Grizzuti Harrison.

it's hard to put into words.......

November is here!

when i look back, think back, my november then was so so different...
the people i hang out with,
the environment i was put into,
the feelings i had,
my thoughts, my attitude, my life.

changes,
it is sometimes we all have to embrace.
it happens to everyone.
it is everywhere.

smile and it will all fly by! :)